A thousand times good night!

alright so since i never really said a "million things" i have decided to start a new and fresh blog. (yes i know this is a little odd and truly a bit pointless)---BUT for some odd reason i feel like it will help me actually WRITE more. i am working on becoming a better writer in general and i think if i exercise writing in every stinkin' way i can-i will improve.... right? also, this is VERY lame, but i really haven't been reading y'alls blogs as much as i would like to since i hardly sign into blogger.

SO this is changing NOW! here we go... my brand new blog is "just keeping austin weird" CLICK HERE and this time i'll write at least once a week!

i'm starting a brand new life, why not start a brand new blog?

http://justkeepingaustinweird.blogspot.com/

adieu,

m.

Weirdo Wednesday

Dear Creepsters,

I regret to inform you that I am finally all out of ways to pretend that I am listening or care when you tell me about the ghost voices you hear around me, about your true talent as a performer who showcases this as a frightening body shaking impression of the God Father, about your obsession with dungeons and dragons, about your thoughts on an ice sickle being the best murder weapon, about your government conspiracy theories and how the Holocaust never happened (this makes me want to punch people in the face), about how I should give you my number/call you some time/hang out more often/or who knows give you a vial of my blood.... Back off weirdoes.

Thanks.

m

it seems i am a bit of a creep magnet, and lately i have decided i am tired of pretending to pay attention to these psychotic people that cross my path... i am not one who likes to be awkward and say "NO YOU'RE A PSYCHO" because i fear that one day when one of these people will go postal they will spare me. remember in the movie Billy Madison that there is a character Billy calls and apologizes to for the ways he treated him in high school and you see the guy mark Billy's name off a LIST!?!? well i just dont wanna be on that list...

so i'm taking a stand... i am going to do my best to not put up with creepy people any more... (note i didn't say "crazy" people... i like crazy people!)

is anyone else a creep magnet too?

lazy lazy lazy

this is an irrelevant blog posting because i do not currently have "a million things to say" BUT i did want to say... SORRY i suck at blogginggggg....

i will remedy this. i guess i just don't have a lot to talk about sometimes or i feel like i have TOO much to talk about to put in one simple post... errr

soon soon soon! i need to catch up on all the many blogs you guys have written!

LOVE Y'ALL!

m

RED AND GREEN!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!!!

hugs, high fives, chest bumps, mistletoe kisses, dirty looks, or really just whatever is the best fitting thing to give you that you like on Christmas!!! :)

love, God Bless, rock out, cheers!

m.

and remember ze reason for ze season!!!

why can't i be the good guy in my OWN dream?

'ello all!

do you find it funny how dreams can manipulate your feelings? last night i had a dream that i woke up feeling so bad about. like guilty all over for NO real reason...

WELL i've been addicted to the Twilight series since i first started reading it back in the summer of '08.... and i wanted to read anything there was about it. I came across how Stephanie got the idea to write Twilight... it was all sparked from a dream she had. (and for you Twilighters it was the meadow scene from the first book). she took that intense scene and turned it into an entire story of forbidden R&J like love... so, I had this dream that probably when i write it out on this blog will sound like nothing substantial at all, but i do at least remember how it left me feeling in the midst and when i woke. it was most certainly INTENSE. so i'm expecting Katie to read this and think of something we could get together and write around it... alrighty... so you know dreams don't make sense and usually they jump all over the place... but here's all of what i remember...

i was part of some group. not sure if i was part of a group like cops, a mafia, a gang, I DONT KNOW... maybe i was a good guy, maybe a bad guy... but part of some group who was after someone... my initial thoughts are that this "someone" was one of our own who may have either done something against us, or we were going to trap them and frame them for something they were innocent of... well there was a plan (see i dont remember the odds and ins from the dream, or maybe those things were still missing but in dreamworld it all made sense anyways)... and in this so called "plan," the part i was set to play was the person who caught the "someone"...

is this even making sense??? sorry if it's not...

... so here i am, and i'm hanging these papers on a wall (and as weird as this is, the location that this entire dream took place was in Mawmaw's house like when i was a kid... weird??? like the furniture and everything was just like when i was a kid). i'm hanging these things waiting for this "so in so dude" to show up... and he does.... and its JOSH!? of course the bad guy (or maybe the good guy i dont know) has to be Josh!? crap, right!?... so he doesn't know what's going on, and I'm talking to him. when I saw that he was sufficiently surrounded I grabbed him up whispered in his ear so that "they" didn't hear me "I'm so so sorry, I had to! I'm sorry!" and "they" whoever "they" were TOOK him away to do who knows what with him... and that was it. . .

IT WAS HORRIBLE! i felt so terrible when i woke up like had betrayed someone i cared about... it was as if he was a Jew and i turned him over to the Nazi... i have no clue what that was all about. i have tried to decipher it all day and pretty much everything just looks and sounds like I'm a terrible person and I'm throwing him to the wolves, but i swear i'm NOT! haha I'm not that mean! I'm protective of him and would fight tooth and nail for him. and NO way would i turn him over to the authorities or whoever these people were...

i guess everyone has that group of people in their life that they would totally drag a dead body across the living room floor with (in reference to a Grey's episode talking about Meredith and Christina's friendship) .... well Josh is on that list of people for me.. but, well... come to think of it, he could probably drag a dead body across the floor on his own... and then if he did do it on his own, i would feel kinda left out ya know... hmm.. so in THAT case maybe i would rat that hooker out for not letting me join the MAFIA fun! haha OKAY i better stop talking about dragging dead murdered bodies around with Josh because the FCC already tracked him down once for me talking like that.... eep... sorry sir!

anyways i thought this was an interesting "scene" i could use for something... so i'm working out the details in my mind where one person has to betray someone they care about and in a really terrible way... that would suck no matter which person you were... and OF COURSE this same stuff is in TONS of movies... but so are scenes like "the meadow" in Twilight... the story of forbidden love of Twilight is nothing new, but a fun and fresh thing to sink your teeth into (and oh crap!... late night corny puns)... and how many more times can i say Twilight???

anyone think Twilight was better than the New Moon movie??? I kinda did... but I'm partial to the first book over the second.... there are things i really liked about New Moon *COUGH* taylor's body *COUGH*, but i'm hoping to see even more i like about it *COUGH* more of taylor's body *COUGH* when I go see it with Bran and Katie when i get home soon!!!

Rock On, God Bless, Peace Outie, and Cheers!

m.

that just happened...

Dear Fate, Karma, Destiny, Luck, and Serendipity,

Thank you for putting me in the right place at the right time on so many occasions. You let me half-way plug my headphones into my comp to listen to music in a quiet but full coffee shop meaning I unknowingly blared my tunes to the public world instead of a random moment on my couch. You allowed me the pleasure of a fiery attack by an ant biting me in my crotch-al region on a midnight date in the middle of campus instead of a moment alone-so I just decided to grin and bare it while trying to walk it off. You made sure that the guy who gave me the award of "Best Kisser" in a contest was the very same guy to make fun of the way I kissed him a year later. You are the one who let one guy practically propose to me within the same hour a different guy was trying to confess his feelings for me in a song, and neither went well... You even made sure that only time I ever "flashed" someone definitely had to be a preacher who literally just preached an amazing salvation sermon and decided to walk around the back of the building to probably pray and just happened to run into me trying to change my clothes for Late Nite at SL Camp at Orange Beach...

However, I think tonight YOU just "took the cake" as they say. (which on a side note saying someone "took the cake" doesn't even make sense to me..) Yep. Yesterday I went around with blurry vision all day from some random reason. I actually have perfect vision so this was a really weird and bothersome day... BUT here's where YOU came in. Today I had perfect vision. Thanks.... This played into my favor as Veronica and I returned from our outing tonight of seeing a show at Second City... See... we were walking up the stairs on the back of our building... and I was wearing my sunglasses... because I'm cool like that... (no really I just was trying to not leave them in the truck so put them on).... I decided to look to my right in mid-convo with Veronica and YOU...YOU...YOU let this be the exact same moment that the old, large, gross man on the first floor who I have never seen before would be deciding to stand NAKED in his kitchen making a sandwich....

so THANKS for making sure this was not on the day I had random blurry vision so that I was allowed to see enough of this man to decide I will fast for the next 5 days... guess I needed to drop a few pounds anyway... also a reminder why I'll never watch the movie Borat again...

Keep aligning things the way they just need to be for me!

Cheers! Rock OUT! God Bless,

m.

honest abe was never very popular!

honesty.

i have never received an award for my writing nor my honesty.. does that mean i'm a horrible writer and a big fat liar---???? i sure hope not!! haha THANKS Kim of William & Kimberly for giving me this award!!!

for the most part i like to "tell it like it is." but i do avoid conflict so i occasionally sugar coat... i'm an actor so people taught me to "create fiction with my mouth" and i generally think i'm pretty good at lying BUT its not fair to use those "powers" in a deceitful way, right? so contrary to the slightly larger nose i have, i am not a liar. i also (thus far) have yet to find myself with my pants on fire!!

SO there are rules of accepting this kick ace award! I have to tell you guys 10 HONEST things about myself then I'm allowed to pass it on! :) YAY... alright... i'm a pretty open person about stuff so it might not all be "secret" honest answers but here goes... Got your protective eye gear and helmet?!? this might be a bit dangerous! i hope you guys still send me some love after all this stuff.... i'm a talker so this might take a while.

1. I have commitment issues. I can barely commit to finishing a book much less a "TITLED" relationship. I'm totally a boy when it comes to dating. I easily feel smothered, and I prefer the chase way more than the catch. (an easy catch, while it may be a Great catch, is still just an easy catch and NOT my fancy)...

2. I truly dislike when people ask me where I'm from because of the way I talk. I really wouldn't care except its just a reminder how thick my accent is no matter how many classes I have taken and how many hours I have worked on it. BUT its a given because I don't practice and work on it like I used to in college. Just sends me a little stabbing reminder how many roles I have missed out on because they told me "well with your accent...." ugh...

3. I LOVE LOVE LOVE school supplies. I should have been a teacher. There is something that makes me truly GIDDY about buying brand new pens and fresh and blank new spiral notebooks!!! AHHHH!!! One day in Austin I literally wasted like an hour looking for a particular type of notebook I wanted to start writing my acting stuff in.

4. I'm addicted to cleaning my ears. I love the way it feels. I literally do this like 1, 2, 3, or maybe 4 times a day. I bet I clean my ears more on average than I brush my teeth.

5. My dreams are weird. I dream about a lot of violence, and I'm not a violent person. Very often my dreams will dictate how I feel about people and myself. Sometimes I'll be mad at someone all day because they were mean to me in a dream! what!? And (EEP) I've definitely had the awkward steamy dream about a classmate or co-worker and the next day saw them and thought.... well... huh. look at those jeans! haha

6. I like that I'm short even though I might complain about it when buying jeans... just you try being short and having Junk In Yo Trunk... i think "shorty" is a very close 2nd to "boo" for my fave nicknames given to me by someone I dated haha.

7. My absolute biggest fear is failure. I just don't want to have a wasted life really.

8. I'm so very thankful for my family. I have been truly blessed. It was always interesting growing up with 8 adults in my immediate family since my siblings were all married when I was in jr high. I love them all, and I count myself pretty lucky that I actually like everyone :) isnt there a "i love em but i dont have to like em" thing--well i even like em too!

9. I love listening to Britney Spears and other pop or even hip hop music when I'm getting dressed to go out. sometimes I might rock out to something like Journey or Spring Awakening but usually its more on the "dancy" side. Its just music like that makes me want to work a little more to make my hair look good and etc... :)

10. I am not racist. And I'm pretty sick and tired of hearing people make racist jokes to me or around me. UGH!!! And... oh yeah.... I VOTED FOR OBAMA!!!!

Alrighty thats my 10! some of these things you probably could have guessed about me and some maybe not. Kinda tough to think of 10... had several things I was going to talk about, but I figured honestly confessing that I made out with one of my teachers in college to improv my grade on my blog wasn't really the best place to say it! hahaha (ok ok a grad student/teacher---but i um..*cough* got a really good grade in the class... just sayin' yo...)

NOW NOW NOW! FOR passing the award on!! I'm going to have to give it to KATIE from Rambling into the Unknown I always read her blogs... she is a fantastic writer and I definitely know that she is a very honest lady!

Rock on, God Bless, Love, and Cheers!

m.