honest abe was never very popular!

honesty.

i have never received an award for my writing nor my honesty.. does that mean i'm a horrible writer and a big fat liar---???? i sure hope not!! haha THANKS Kim of William & Kimberly for giving me this award!!!

for the most part i like to "tell it like it is." but i do avoid conflict so i occasionally sugar coat... i'm an actor so people taught me to "create fiction with my mouth" and i generally think i'm pretty good at lying BUT its not fair to use those "powers" in a deceitful way, right? so contrary to the slightly larger nose i have, i am not a liar. i also (thus far) have yet to find myself with my pants on fire!!

SO there are rules of accepting this kick ace award! I have to tell you guys 10 HONEST things about myself then I'm allowed to pass it on! :) YAY... alright... i'm a pretty open person about stuff so it might not all be "secret" honest answers but here goes... Got your protective eye gear and helmet?!? this might be a bit dangerous! i hope you guys still send me some love after all this stuff.... i'm a talker so this might take a while.

1. I have commitment issues. I can barely commit to finishing a book much less a "TITLED" relationship. I'm totally a boy when it comes to dating. I easily feel smothered, and I prefer the chase way more than the catch. (an easy catch, while it may be a Great catch, is still just an easy catch and NOT my fancy)...

2. I truly dislike when people ask me where I'm from because of the way I talk. I really wouldn't care except its just a reminder how thick my accent is no matter how many classes I have taken and how many hours I have worked on it. BUT its a given because I don't practice and work on it like I used to in college. Just sends me a little stabbing reminder how many roles I have missed out on because they told me "well with your accent...." ugh...

3. I LOVE LOVE LOVE school supplies. I should have been a teacher. There is something that makes me truly GIDDY about buying brand new pens and fresh and blank new spiral notebooks!!! AHHHH!!! One day in Austin I literally wasted like an hour looking for a particular type of notebook I wanted to start writing my acting stuff in.

4. I'm addicted to cleaning my ears. I love the way it feels. I literally do this like 1, 2, 3, or maybe 4 times a day. I bet I clean my ears more on average than I brush my teeth.

5. My dreams are weird. I dream about a lot of violence, and I'm not a violent person. Very often my dreams will dictate how I feel about people and myself. Sometimes I'll be mad at someone all day because they were mean to me in a dream! what!? And (EEP) I've definitely had the awkward steamy dream about a classmate or co-worker and the next day saw them and thought.... well... huh. look at those jeans! haha

6. I like that I'm short even though I might complain about it when buying jeans... just you try being short and having Junk In Yo Trunk... i think "shorty" is a very close 2nd to "boo" for my fave nicknames given to me by someone I dated haha.

7. My absolute biggest fear is failure. I just don't want to have a wasted life really.

8. I'm so very thankful for my family. I have been truly blessed. It was always interesting growing up with 8 adults in my immediate family since my siblings were all married when I was in jr high. I love them all, and I count myself pretty lucky that I actually like everyone :) isnt there a "i love em but i dont have to like em" thing--well i even like em too!

9. I love listening to Britney Spears and other pop or even hip hop music when I'm getting dressed to go out. sometimes I might rock out to something like Journey or Spring Awakening but usually its more on the "dancy" side. Its just music like that makes me want to work a little more to make my hair look good and etc... :)

10. I am not racist. And I'm pretty sick and tired of hearing people make racist jokes to me or around me. UGH!!! And... oh yeah.... I VOTED FOR OBAMA!!!!

Alrighty thats my 10! some of these things you probably could have guessed about me and some maybe not. Kinda tough to think of 10... had several things I was going to talk about, but I figured honestly confessing that I made out with one of my teachers in college to improv my grade on my blog wasn't really the best place to say it! hahaha (ok ok a grad student/teacher---but i um..*cough* got a really good grade in the class... just sayin' yo...)

NOW NOW NOW! FOR passing the award on!! I'm going to have to give it to KATIE from Rambling into the Unknown I always read her blogs... she is a fantastic writer and I definitely know that she is a very honest lady!

Rock on, God Bless, Love, and Cheers!

m.