RED AND GREEN!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!!!

hugs, high fives, chest bumps, mistletoe kisses, dirty looks, or really just whatever is the best fitting thing to give you that you like on Christmas!!! :)

love, God Bless, rock out, cheers!

m.

and remember ze reason for ze season!!!

why can't i be the good guy in my OWN dream?

'ello all!

do you find it funny how dreams can manipulate your feelings? last night i had a dream that i woke up feeling so bad about. like guilty all over for NO real reason...

WELL i've been addicted to the Twilight series since i first started reading it back in the summer of '08.... and i wanted to read anything there was about it. I came across how Stephanie got the idea to write Twilight... it was all sparked from a dream she had. (and for you Twilighters it was the meadow scene from the first book). she took that intense scene and turned it into an entire story of forbidden R&J like love... so, I had this dream that probably when i write it out on this blog will sound like nothing substantial at all, but i do at least remember how it left me feeling in the midst and when i woke. it was most certainly INTENSE. so i'm expecting Katie to read this and think of something we could get together and write around it... alrighty... so you know dreams don't make sense and usually they jump all over the place... but here's all of what i remember...

i was part of some group. not sure if i was part of a group like cops, a mafia, a gang, I DONT KNOW... maybe i was a good guy, maybe a bad guy... but part of some group who was after someone... my initial thoughts are that this "someone" was one of our own who may have either done something against us, or we were going to trap them and frame them for something they were innocent of... well there was a plan (see i dont remember the odds and ins from the dream, or maybe those things were still missing but in dreamworld it all made sense anyways)... and in this so called "plan," the part i was set to play was the person who caught the "someone"...

is this even making sense??? sorry if it's not...

... so here i am, and i'm hanging these papers on a wall (and as weird as this is, the location that this entire dream took place was in Mawmaw's house like when i was a kid... weird??? like the furniture and everything was just like when i was a kid). i'm hanging these things waiting for this "so in so dude" to show up... and he does.... and its JOSH!? of course the bad guy (or maybe the good guy i dont know) has to be Josh!? crap, right!?... so he doesn't know what's going on, and I'm talking to him. when I saw that he was sufficiently surrounded I grabbed him up whispered in his ear so that "they" didn't hear me "I'm so so sorry, I had to! I'm sorry!" and "they" whoever "they" were TOOK him away to do who knows what with him... and that was it. . .

IT WAS HORRIBLE! i felt so terrible when i woke up like had betrayed someone i cared about... it was as if he was a Jew and i turned him over to the Nazi... i have no clue what that was all about. i have tried to decipher it all day and pretty much everything just looks and sounds like I'm a terrible person and I'm throwing him to the wolves, but i swear i'm NOT! haha I'm not that mean! I'm protective of him and would fight tooth and nail for him. and NO way would i turn him over to the authorities or whoever these people were...

i guess everyone has that group of people in their life that they would totally drag a dead body across the living room floor with (in reference to a Grey's episode talking about Meredith and Christina's friendship) .... well Josh is on that list of people for me.. but, well... come to think of it, he could probably drag a dead body across the floor on his own... and then if he did do it on his own, i would feel kinda left out ya know... hmm.. so in THAT case maybe i would rat that hooker out for not letting me join the MAFIA fun! haha OKAY i better stop talking about dragging dead murdered bodies around with Josh because the FCC already tracked him down once for me talking like that.... eep... sorry sir!

anyways i thought this was an interesting "scene" i could use for something... so i'm working out the details in my mind where one person has to betray someone they care about and in a really terrible way... that would suck no matter which person you were... and OF COURSE this same stuff is in TONS of movies... but so are scenes like "the meadow" in Twilight... the story of forbidden love of Twilight is nothing new, but a fun and fresh thing to sink your teeth into (and oh crap!... late night corny puns)... and how many more times can i say Twilight???

anyone think Twilight was better than the New Moon movie??? I kinda did... but I'm partial to the first book over the second.... there are things i really liked about New Moon *COUGH* taylor's body *COUGH*, but i'm hoping to see even more i like about it *COUGH* more of taylor's body *COUGH* when I go see it with Bran and Katie when i get home soon!!!

Rock On, God Bless, Peace Outie, and Cheers!

m.

that just happened...

Dear Fate, Karma, Destiny, Luck, and Serendipity,

Thank you for putting me in the right place at the right time on so many occasions. You let me half-way plug my headphones into my comp to listen to music in a quiet but full coffee shop meaning I unknowingly blared my tunes to the public world instead of a random moment on my couch. You allowed me the pleasure of a fiery attack by an ant biting me in my crotch-al region on a midnight date in the middle of campus instead of a moment alone-so I just decided to grin and bare it while trying to walk it off. You made sure that the guy who gave me the award of "Best Kisser" in a contest was the very same guy to make fun of the way I kissed him a year later. You are the one who let one guy practically propose to me within the same hour a different guy was trying to confess his feelings for me in a song, and neither went well... You even made sure that only time I ever "flashed" someone definitely had to be a preacher who literally just preached an amazing salvation sermon and decided to walk around the back of the building to probably pray and just happened to run into me trying to change my clothes for Late Nite at SL Camp at Orange Beach...

However, I think tonight YOU just "took the cake" as they say. (which on a side note saying someone "took the cake" doesn't even make sense to me..) Yep. Yesterday I went around with blurry vision all day from some random reason. I actually have perfect vision so this was a really weird and bothersome day... BUT here's where YOU came in. Today I had perfect vision. Thanks.... This played into my favor as Veronica and I returned from our outing tonight of seeing a show at Second City... See... we were walking up the stairs on the back of our building... and I was wearing my sunglasses... because I'm cool like that... (no really I just was trying to not leave them in the truck so put them on).... I decided to look to my right in mid-convo with Veronica and YOU...YOU...YOU let this be the exact same moment that the old, large, gross man on the first floor who I have never seen before would be deciding to stand NAKED in his kitchen making a sandwich....

so THANKS for making sure this was not on the day I had random blurry vision so that I was allowed to see enough of this man to decide I will fast for the next 5 days... guess I needed to drop a few pounds anyway... also a reminder why I'll never watch the movie Borat again...

Keep aligning things the way they just need to be for me!

Cheers! Rock OUT! God Bless,

m.

honest abe was never very popular!

honesty.

i have never received an award for my writing nor my honesty.. does that mean i'm a horrible writer and a big fat liar---???? i sure hope not!! haha THANKS Kim of William & Kimberly for giving me this award!!!

for the most part i like to "tell it like it is." but i do avoid conflict so i occasionally sugar coat... i'm an actor so people taught me to "create fiction with my mouth" and i generally think i'm pretty good at lying BUT its not fair to use those "powers" in a deceitful way, right? so contrary to the slightly larger nose i have, i am not a liar. i also (thus far) have yet to find myself with my pants on fire!!

SO there are rules of accepting this kick ace award! I have to tell you guys 10 HONEST things about myself then I'm allowed to pass it on! :) YAY... alright... i'm a pretty open person about stuff so it might not all be "secret" honest answers but here goes... Got your protective eye gear and helmet?!? this might be a bit dangerous! i hope you guys still send me some love after all this stuff.... i'm a talker so this might take a while.

1. I have commitment issues. I can barely commit to finishing a book much less a "TITLED" relationship. I'm totally a boy when it comes to dating. I easily feel smothered, and I prefer the chase way more than the catch. (an easy catch, while it may be a Great catch, is still just an easy catch and NOT my fancy)...

2. I truly dislike when people ask me where I'm from because of the way I talk. I really wouldn't care except its just a reminder how thick my accent is no matter how many classes I have taken and how many hours I have worked on it. BUT its a given because I don't practice and work on it like I used to in college. Just sends me a little stabbing reminder how many roles I have missed out on because they told me "well with your accent...." ugh...

3. I LOVE LOVE LOVE school supplies. I should have been a teacher. There is something that makes me truly GIDDY about buying brand new pens and fresh and blank new spiral notebooks!!! AHHHH!!! One day in Austin I literally wasted like an hour looking for a particular type of notebook I wanted to start writing my acting stuff in.

4. I'm addicted to cleaning my ears. I love the way it feels. I literally do this like 1, 2, 3, or maybe 4 times a day. I bet I clean my ears more on average than I brush my teeth.

5. My dreams are weird. I dream about a lot of violence, and I'm not a violent person. Very often my dreams will dictate how I feel about people and myself. Sometimes I'll be mad at someone all day because they were mean to me in a dream! what!? And (EEP) I've definitely had the awkward steamy dream about a classmate or co-worker and the next day saw them and thought.... well... huh. look at those jeans! haha

6. I like that I'm short even though I might complain about it when buying jeans... just you try being short and having Junk In Yo Trunk... i think "shorty" is a very close 2nd to "boo" for my fave nicknames given to me by someone I dated haha.

7. My absolute biggest fear is failure. I just don't want to have a wasted life really.

8. I'm so very thankful for my family. I have been truly blessed. It was always interesting growing up with 8 adults in my immediate family since my siblings were all married when I was in jr high. I love them all, and I count myself pretty lucky that I actually like everyone :) isnt there a "i love em but i dont have to like em" thing--well i even like em too!

9. I love listening to Britney Spears and other pop or even hip hop music when I'm getting dressed to go out. sometimes I might rock out to something like Journey or Spring Awakening but usually its more on the "dancy" side. Its just music like that makes me want to work a little more to make my hair look good and etc... :)

10. I am not racist. And I'm pretty sick and tired of hearing people make racist jokes to me or around me. UGH!!! And... oh yeah.... I VOTED FOR OBAMA!!!!

Alrighty thats my 10! some of these things you probably could have guessed about me and some maybe not. Kinda tough to think of 10... had several things I was going to talk about, but I figured honestly confessing that I made out with one of my teachers in college to improv my grade on my blog wasn't really the best place to say it! hahaha (ok ok a grad student/teacher---but i um..*cough* got a really good grade in the class... just sayin' yo...)

NOW NOW NOW! FOR passing the award on!! I'm going to have to give it to KATIE from Rambling into the Unknown I always read her blogs... she is a fantastic writer and I definitely know that she is a very honest lady!

Rock on, God Bless, Love, and Cheers!

m.

"Body Work" eh???

something random. and crazy. :)

so out and about running errands with veronica the other day. she is driving her truck. the truck has a pretty large dent in the back of it, but whatever... driving around the parking lot by walgreens and she is turning around because we realize its going to take TOO long to pull out at this driveway so why not go to the redlight... [dont you hate when you need to turn left and you're pulling out of a parking lot and traffic is crazy and you can't get both sides to be clear!?!?!] in the midst of her turning around another car makes a mad dash to follow us and excessively honks. The guy follows us still honking and eventually decides to pull up beside us (driving on the wrong side) to ask if he can do some "Body Work" on the truck...

alright. hmm.

so this happened on my first day here as well. at walgreens, some guy blocked Veronica from backing out-again honking and pointing at the big dent on the truck. she said this has happened a total of 4 of 5 times now in the last few months.... and really its funny because V is always starts yelling to me "NO I DON'T WANT ANY *&^#* $*^&% @*&^ %#&^ WORK ON MY #&*$&^%*# TRUCK!!!" so i just laugh :)

OK... so that brings me to THIS..... is it ever really okay to go and offer your services bluntly to someone to improve the physical look of something.....?

say there was a PLASTIC SURGEON walking around in the mall.... (you can imagine Dr. Mark Sloan YUMMY! or Dr. Christian Troy depending on your plastic surgeon TV show poison of choice...) ....would it ever be okay for him to walk up to some lady, blow a whistle, and say "HEY I noticed your butt and well... I do BODY WORK!!!" ....? hmm

cheers!

m.

mmm i guess if he was HOT like McSteamy i wouldn't mind!!!

Dr. Troy aint too bad

i need to DO something

i seriously need a job. not only to pay my bills, but for some friggin entertainment!!!! chicago is great dont get me wrong but after several days of just going around and dropping off my application and riding the bus constantly... ugh... i need something to DO! and its a little disheartening to be going around just spending money on this and that and not be making any-makes me anxious. i've been stalking the auditioning websites crossing my fingers that i can find something to audition for... but alas, it seems that most things are either not paying gigs or things that are Christmas shows and such which isn't really all that possible for me since i'm going to be going home for that.... LAME.... i did see a posting for ROMEO & JULIET... but *sad face* its an Equity show, and being that i'm still not in the union i am guessing there is no way in H-E-Double Hockey Sticks i'll be sneaking into that one... sorry to be complaining... i guess its the rainy and dreary weather that has me a bit annoyed at the moment... Veronica works a ton and is usually pretty tired when she gets home so she goes to bed quite early...

but on a good note i have gotten a lot of reading done with this lack of things to do. in book 4 of the House of Night series... today i bought a book recommended by Katie called Blue Bloods. YES another Vamp series! But hey don't make fun, they definitely keep my interest. I also got Richard Matheson's The Box. It has some short stories in it but the main one is what that new movie "The Box" is about. I was hoping it would be some crazy horror novel but that story only took me a few mins on the bus to read. Interesting indeed though.

tonight i'm supposed to be going with Veronica and her friends to some swanky bar/club... i'm sure it will be a lot of fun i just hope to not run into too many pretentious people that lurk in the spotlights (haha no not in the shadows for this narcissistic breed) merely to give you the "stank eye" ha! hmm who knows maybe i will dress up and wear my red heels just so that i can look like the narcissistic nelly!!!? but i never feel like getting dressed up when the weather sucks... okay okay okay i see the look you're giving me, i hardly ever like dressing up really... BUT when i do it i always feel really nice! it would be an evening with long hair that i would make it curly... with this short hair i'll.... uh.... just wear it as it is i guess :) ha

alrighty i better go, i am beginning to type and blog for my own entertainment and time passing which is never good!!! take care peeps!!!

Love, Rock ON, God Bless, Cheers!

m.

BE FUNNY DANGIT!!!!

alrighty. sitting in my new neighborhood coffeeshop Caribou Coffee... I put in an app here but the manager is new and said "I just got here last week so I'll be evaluating our current talent then deciding if I need to hire more talent." Talent??? Is this an acting job? I'll be honest, I would love it if all of a sudden the Coffee staff started singing and dancing. :)

SO... this weekend I had my first Second City classes EVER! Wow! I have to say that I kinda felt a wee bit teary eyed on my way... I mean... well.. i never really cry for reasons people should cry... but here i was doing something for a LONG time I have said "Oh I would love to do that!" and its just a surreal feeling i think. weird... but i have a much longgggeeeerrrr way to go.... and i'm totally cool with that, i think its the ride that is supposed to be the best right?!

first up was my Improv class. this one is basically an introduction to improv class for actors with a degree or professional experience... if i take the next 8 wk improv class then i would be eligible to audition to be part of the conservatory. i'm DEFINITELY interested in that, but i am not sure because although it would KILL to have that on my resume i'm sure its sooooo expensive and its tough to decide right now if i wanna be in Chicago that long *shrug* i dont know yet, but if i stay and take the next one maybe i'll audition and see if i could even get in and go from there. ANYWAYS the first class has 12 peeps in it and they are a fun group. i can foresee us all being really close soon because its just the kind intense crazy stuff that forces you let down your barriers and work together as a unit. plus they are HILARIOUS :) and i think the teacher Jack is really cool too.... cannot wait for this weekend's class! there was a girl in it from Houston that knows a guy I went to college with pretty well... Okay so maybe its the same guy I had to look very dirty in silhouette with in The Best Little Whorehouse in Texas and I found it ironic he was her Prince Charming in a play but was clearly mine too eeeeeep! hahaha :)

then there was Standup! It was really interesting. I can tell this will be really tough for me. We did a ton of really fun exercises and the class only has 6 people in it so that means even more time on your feet (which is scary but really really good). My teacher Bryan randomly picked things our partner had to give us a fake tattoo of. Then we had to get up and immediately tell the story of how we got this random tattoo. haha mine was a giant dragon on my arm and i almost forgot to wash it off because i'm always up here wearing a hoodie and stuff :) i'll just tell you my story had to do with going to meetings for my obsession with Dungeons and Dragons... D&D Anonymous! (and for the record i have NEVER played that game)... hehe it was the best thing i could come up with at the moment. one of the last things we had to talk about was something we were passionate about either in love or hate and i talked about my absolute hate of thongs... BUT BUT BUT there was this girl that had the FUNNIEST story about Online Dating. she apparently submitted herself to Eharmony and based on her character analysis they sent her a formal letter in the MAIL that said she was not compatible with ANYONE in their database hehehe and she told of the characteristics they circled as possible reasons. let me just say that it was a true story and i felt sooo bad laughing but it was GOLDEN! She is from Houston actually but has been in NYC the last 8 years. :)

alrighty... i gotta get to my homework which is to write a routine that sucks! hahaha. really! he said if we get the crappy comedy out we are more likely to do well.... BUT the catch is i can't just get up there and ramble i have to think of what i have seen comedians do that fails and commit fully to that... i am thinking i might do really dumb puns and stuff like that because i can imagine getting boo'd off a stage for that crummy stuff :) we'll see.... sorry i'm not going to spell check thissssss

CHEERS!

m.

a look at where i'm at!

Chicago living! (we are on the 3rd floor)

front door

first flight of stairs! woahhh

view from the top of those stairs!!! better not trip

2nd set of stairs!

thats my place back there!

i cut my rock on sign out by accident!

our building from a distance

the courtyard adjacent to our building (to the right of it)

from front door-look Left

look Right

straight across the street is a neat art gallery (can you see waldo? or er... me?)

my corner! NO not the one i "work" on crazy!

inside the front door... look right! see kitchen.. and behind that is the living room (where i am sleeping)

opposite side of the kitchen behind that you can see into the other side which is Veronica's room area

part of the living room

the couch that turns into my bed!!! see DottieAbigail Veronica's cat always watching me!

bathroom is across from the kitchen in-between the two areas

the back of our building

there is a little park back there

more pics of the actual city to come this week! :)

cheers,

m.

CHICAGO 24 hrs in!

So I officially have been in Chicago 24 hrs now :) hehe kinda cool huh? okay its really friggin cool as in COLD really! Last night I got to hang out with Veronica and a bunch of her friends on a Trolley ride for Adam's (i don't really know Adam) Bday. haha it was a lot of fun and everyone seemed really nice and stuff. I did think it was kinda hilarious that the first place I went in Chicago (other than the Target, Walgreens, and Home Depot errands we did yesterday....), I mean the first actual "Chicago place" was a bar themed Texas Longhorns... WHAA??? Well the bday boy is from Texas so that was the plan... I just found it funny that at first I saw the decorations and didn't think much of it because I've been living in Austin, and all of a sudden I thought WAIT...WHAT?

During the ride we did pass Wrigley Field though AHHH! and.... a HUGE museum that the front of was totally advertising some big PIRATE exhibit that I WILL see this week when i figure out where the heck that was!!! :) anyways, Veronica had to leave this morning till next Sat for work in St. Louis so it shall be interesting figuring stuff out :) I'm excited though, this should definitely be interesting! Pictures to come as soon as I feel up to getting out in this cold weather!! feels much like Christmas in Texas out there!

Operation: "FIND OPRAH" begins...... NOW! ;)

Cheers, Rock On, God Bless, and PEACE!

m.

Gyno, Guns, and more! oh my!!!

15 seconds. does that sound like a long time? not really... i mean unless someone is poking you in the armpit with a screwdriver for 15 seconds it doesn't seem like that is too long to endure just about anything... i've been on stage before and forgot my line. thankfully this has really only happened once, but i was there for 25 seconds in complete "brain fart" induced silence... wow that sucked, and a story for another time... BUT yesterday morning i went to the gyno

so lets be honest ladies... my va jay jay is always a little angry at me for this "va jay jay violation visit." (sorry i like alliteration) so i know she is going to give me attitude all week about it... so i'm already in a bad mood... and an awkward mood. okay i'll face it, i walk around in an awkward mood about 70% of the time... but i digress... soooo.. i get there, they call my name. i'm passing through tons of patients as the nurse looking at my chart says "Oh its been a long time, Megan" (see i skipped last year.. and maybe the year before i dont know... okay i do know, but seriously i hate going) and of course i awkwardly attempted to be funny and said, "Well I mean, he didn't even buy me dinner or call me afterwards so... I've been holding a grudge!" She looked at me like I was crazy... then finally laughed.

THEN i got to "THE ROOM" and got dressed in that awesome paper napkin that really brings out the "OH CRAP" in my eyes in less that 15 seconds. I fear for some idiotic reason that after the nurse tells me to undress that she is going to shut the door and play some type of hide and go seek CHEATER counting game ("1 mississippi... 2 miss.... 14 mmm... 20!!!! ready or NOT....") so its like a race! i mean if these guys had a hidden camera on me undressing they would think i've been paid for it before! its called FEAR! so in the mad dash, i kinda dropped my purse by the chair and hopped on the table. straightened my hair and smiled at my record timing. then for the next HOUR i stared at my purse that was awkwardly by the chair and not on the chair or stacked on my shoes... i tried with my mind to move it because now sitting on the table with the possibility of them opening the door at ANY moment kept me from getting up and moving it... or grabbing my cell to text to pass the time... telepathic powers would have been nice... i could have moved my purse and who knows maybe given the nurse explosive diarrhea for making me get undressed so early and wait OVER AN HOUR nakey for the doctor... ughhhh....

i think at this point i am starting to sweat and am running out of Bon Jovi songs to sing to myself... so maybe the theme from JAWS plays in my mind as i look up at the ceiling with the dumb poster of a beach on it... I mean... if someone is going to be "Va Jay Jay Violating" me and I'm going to be looking at a poster, wouldn't it be nice if the poster was of something better than a hammock with an ugly hat on it?... Wouldn't it be hilarious if it was something random like a poster of Sarah Palin doing the wink ;) haha "You Betcha!"

finally he shows up... we talk a little about my move to Chicago he does a demonstration walk across the room to show me how i should walk in Chicago.. I could describe this but its better left to the imagination (a little model hip action going), and then he told me to buy a gun! (and i am pretty sure that even though he was telling me this for safety in Chi-Town, the idea of a Gyno telling someone to buy a gun is really the start of a plethora of inappropriate but funny jokes).

NOW... my 15 second pet peeve. when he pointed to put my feet in the dreaded stirrups and to "scoot down" he THEN decided to take 15 seconds to put on his gloves and prepare... i mean thats the longest 15 seconds ever... i'm feeling like all out there like "AHHHHHH!" (pretend that was an operatic note sounding much like Angels hahaha and thats how i was to the world). hahaha so i think next time i would rather take the screwdriver to the armpit for 15 seconds than the exposure of the Pirate in My Pants! *COUGH* Pirates of Penzance!

and this is why i never blog! i'm usually better at censoring myself, but i couldn't this time :)

cheers, God Bless, ROCK OUT!

m.

i NEVER thought i would say this... but.... oh gosh... it makes me a little nauseous... what is that taste in my mouth??? i know this taste... yep its a little vomit in my mouth... OKAY... here goes...

i understand (in a very SMALL way) the perks of the mullet.

AHHHHHHHHHH! hahahaha i was thinking today about my new hair cut. i mean i like it but i kinda don't at the same time... weird. BUT haha what i have figured out is this....

from the front i think the short hair is really precious and spunky.. kinda like i wanna wear black and listen to either rock or of course Beyonce's song DIVA (lyrics "i'mma i'mma a diva, now DIVA is the female version of a HUSTLA" hahaha) i mean i feel like i could totally slap a hooker with this hair cut!

BUT from the back i think it looks funny. not the cut, the cut is great... but its like a floating head.. and i swear the "junk in my trunk" is more obvious hahaha oops... what was that Baby Got Back lyric "36, 24, 36!...Yeah if she's 5'3"!!" wait..... i'm 5'3" ;)

SOOOOO from the back i prefer the way my long hair looked.... feminine, long, blonde, and generally looked good.... from the front i liked the long hair of course, but i also like the short look.

Does this mean... I want business up front and a party in the back??? hahaha it's ironic that i somewhat understand perks of the mullet! but what about the rest of the issues with a mullet like the fact that is JANKY, funky, and so so so so wrong!!!?? hahaha

i wish a good hair day for all of you!

cheers, God Bless, ROCK OUT, lots-o-love,

m.

guts???

i think i am going to cut my hair off tomorrow... i might chicken out... i mean literally i have only been kicking around this idea for about 45 mins... hmm... i like spontaneity though... something about me and the days around the 20th of the month usually prove to be dangerous hahaha.... got my tatt on jan 20.... got my dog on aug 20... i am sure there are other crazy things... heck i bet that time i dyed my hair dark red was close to nov 20 because it was right before thanksgiving... i get antsy, and i think thats my own lil form of pms. ha. :) crazy... i was thinking something like Kherington Payne... i love that talented chick and have always thought she was beautiful from her first audition on SYTYCD...and i am sooo excited to see her in FAME!!

cheers, rock on, love love love, and God Bless!

m.

they really ARE listening!!!

so funny stories that further my theory that i am living in a movie... i know thats pretty darn narcissistic but a girl can only hope for a better explanation than just some insane luck.

where should i start? should i tell you about the cops and FCC hunting down Josh and hounding him about a conversation we had that was broadcasted ALL over Jasper County for every COP, emergency personnel, or old person with a scanner to hear Saturday night?? should i tell you why i almost had to shank an old douchebaggy-like character for dissing my brother on facebook? or maybe i'll tell you about Josh's freudian slip of saying "i'll just put my tongue in your mouth" in front of my MOM? what? i don't know why i hardly ever blog... but here goes...

"WOW! The FCC really is listening to everything we say!" -Josh

sooo. this weekend the radio in Josh's truck jammed. on friday another guy had it, but on saturday Josh was driving it around. Saturday evening he and i went to sonic (sorry Kim if you're reading this, i know you miss Sonic). we had NO idea but everything in that truck was broadcasting and blocking the radio for every single person with a radio or scanner! nobody could talk back and forth on the radios like they should be able to and it was actually a pretty big deal... SO... while we were hanging out in the truck apparently i thought it was a great idea to tell Josh what i had heard was the synopsis of Sorority Row, and then i proceeded to tell him of a prank a friend of mine had told me that involved a dead body in the road (a fake one actually...) AWESOME MEGAN.. stellar really. so on sunday afternoon several vehicles show up at Josh's some marked, some not, one tahoe belonging to the FCC as well. HA! they had tracked the signal via GPS.. and also talked about me talking about dead bodies and cutting someone up into tiny pieces... WHA?? oh and the funniest part i think, the lady said "well we knew it was young guy and girl and we were really worried that 'something' might happen so we were thankful nothing did" BAAAAAAAHAHAHAHA! how funny! all those cops on the edge of their seats hoping for a radio show :) priceless.

so thats really all for now.. as far as me wanting to shank a jerk for being rude to my bro, i assume most of you are friends with him on facebook and probably know about the whole stupid ordeal... blah, i am so mad at that guy still... grr... and for josh's freudian outburst! haha it started from him trying to give me a wet willy and my mom was laughing at him and i was cringing and angry.. then he just blurted out "i'll just put my tongue in your mouth!" i mean what the heck does that have to do with anything here?? whaaa? he then buried his head behind me, Mom was laughing hysterically, and i was pretty close to snorting Dr Pepper out my nose! ha... good thing i am not 17, i'm pretty sure she would have kicked him out even though it was just a slip of the tongue.. baaaahaha... sorry lame corny pun i know i know!!! its late cut me some slack! okay? okay!

ROCK OUT, God Bless You, xoxo's, Cheers, and Peace Outie!!!

m.

a great day

tonight was a very awesome birthday really.

woke up this morning (i slept in as late as humanly possible first). not happy about 24. i mean i hate even numbers for one... 23 was kind of a fun age really... sounds fun anyways, but twenty-four... ugh... and what have i really done with my life at this point...? almost 25 and i was hoping to have myself pretty established in whatever way i chose by that point and it feels quite quite far away... nevertheless i cant really freeze time and get my stuff done... i'm now 24. SO... with that... i had a laugh over cereal this morning about several funny things that happened in my year of 23... great... to terrible. i played some drums today and again was reminded how RUSTY i am. i almost dont want to call myself a drummer anymore because of my lack of improvement... i mean how many years have i been playing anyways??? sad... oh well.. i watched 16 candles because i love 80s movies and yes i was being a little mopey about my bday haha last night i watched the Friends where rachel turned 30 and sympathized ;)... today i was showered with sweet happy birthdays from family and friends. THANK you btw! so then i started getting ready for tonight's dinner!

my parents took us (jason, candice, aiden, brandee, jarrod, krissy, katie, josh, and i) to eat at TOKYO japanese grill :) it was an absolute blast and totally worth the wait and the crammed seating we all had so that we could enjoy sitting at the same grill. SO fun to watch Aiden and Krissy when the chef was doing his fire tricks and such hehehe. Aiden kept saying FIRE FIRE FIRE and Krissy looked pretty nervous. they were so cute and sweet tonight telling me happy birthday tons of times :) Brandee and Jason both tried sushi for the first time! i was VERY impressed with this and apparently Bran liked it enough to want to try it more. YAY!! i will totally capitalize on this while i am still home cause i need a sushi buddy :)

as a selfish birthday wish (hehehe) i gave everyone the length of dinner to come up with one fact about themselves that i didn't know. this was super fun and turned out to be my favorite thing of the day :) i would share these stories and details but then i would have to kill you, or maybe they would kill me first!! hehehe KATIE still owes me one!!

after dinner Katie, Josh, and i rushed to our movie to see the Gamer. a good movie. action packed and interesting. kinda made my head hurt though, and if you see it you will understand why. it had some blair witch/cloverfield movement issues that made watching on the big screen a little straining on the eyes. but gerard butler is a hottie nonetheless so i enjoyed it thoroughly :) then we went to sertino's coffee for an hour or more to hang out and chat! this is a fun place and i really enjoyed talking and laughing with katie and josh.

(SIDE NOTE) so back in summer of 2006 while hanging with veronica, johnny, and ben we were at the starbucks in barnes and noble and an older couple were there. the man was being rude to a younger girl there for being disruptive (at first i thought it was his granddaughter then realized it was a stranger to him) and me being... well... me... decided it was rude of him to call this young girl out in that manner so i was being obnoxious and saying innaprop things out loud... okay maybe a little too loud like penis and such.. hahaha yeah i know me saying (yelling) the word penis totally unexpected huh? hahaha... not really... one of my fave things to do to my friends around that time in college haha they would get sooo embarrassed! ANYWAYS i was just being rude and junk and the old guy was giving me dirty looks...

wellllll i have been seeing this same old couple in beaumont lately and saw them tonight hehehe. they are actually kinda funny and most likely just people watchers. they were cute leaving sertino's pinky in pinky :) i said i would shed a tear if i could freakin manifest one! ugh thats a frustration of mine. but they were pretty cute and i was sorry for being rude 3 years ago to them... hmm...

okay so this is a long post because i am happy and rambly... 23... got my first tattoo.. lost approx 10 lbs., gained it back, and lost it again ha *shakes fist in air*... boarded a pirate ship... discovered a beer that i actually like drinking (wheat beers... huh... whodathunk it?)... started my first professional film acting and played my first lead shakespearean role... increased on my addiction to vampires with seeing twilight/starting to watch trueblood.... got a puppy.... trip to ER cause my ovaries suck. met a guy named christopher robin (robin hood anyone?)... saw the musical WICKED... busted my tail in the kitchen... actually fell down a lot really... waited tables for the first time and totally dropped a tray of soup! said the f word in front of my mom or did she say it first??? (OOPS sorry Candy)... uh you know... normal 23 yr old stuff to do.

24 here i come.... ugh... :)

LOVE you guys, ROCK out, God Bless, and sweet dreams....

m.

(rocket gave me bday kisses before bed hehehe but then he bit my ear... OUCH)

sorry i haven't written in a while.... i am going to get motivated to blog about something of significance soon even if i have to make it up :) i'll start brainstorming...

my puppy!

Really?

sorry i haven't written much at all...

so things that make me think, really megan? really!?

let me set the scene. couple weeks ago. i'm being awesome. hanging at my fave coffee shop with a project of sorts to do. probably some writing i dont remember. but i decided to listen to some music...

itunes on shuffle chooses Peter Frampton's "Baby I Love Your Way"

megan thinks, a moment and decides its a great song to listen to

::plugs in earphones::

but for some reason she cant hear the song well.....?

::turns the sound WAY up...ALL THE WAY::

thinks, oh its been forever since i listened to this song maybe its a bad version i pirated... i mean *COUGH*

the song is in its final few seconds and it hits me.... my earphone cord isn't fully plugged in so i am BLARING that song for the entire room... are you kiddin' me? MEGAN!?

i mean thank goodness i wasn't listening to Avenue Q's "Everyone's A Lil Bit Racist" or maybe something worseeee eeeeep!

FLASHBACK FRI...SATURDAY!

i missed FLASHBACK FRIDAY... so even though its Saturday i still wanna have one :) I scanned some pics lately and put them on facebook that were from way back when so here are a few to share :) 

awww SNOW! i remember that dog in my mind as a kid as being like a big sheep dog! now i see how small she actually was 

WELL hello 80's!!!! hahaha i love this pic! mostly i love the hair and the style but i also laugh at my funny face! i really never learned how to smile properly, and veronica still makes fun of me for it!

90's! its funny because in this picture Brandee and Ali are both a little younger than i am now. I love that I grew up having older siblings, what a help and blessing that has been for me! I do kinda wish that we had been in college around the same time as them though, I would have had fun giving guys a hard time who tried to date either of my sisters! I imagine Jason and I would have had a Ska band or something :) 

ROCK and ROLL, LOVE, GOD BLESS, and CHEERS!

m.

do you know ED?

this is completely random and irrelevant i know, and there are tons of other things i could type about... sorry i am lacking in my prose as of late... just been really busy with stuff in ze life and not feeling inspired to do much writing... or much of anything.  however, this thought just crossed my head about 20 mins ago...

was reading an email.. junk really not pertaining to me at all... about someone who is going to be interviewing the stunt class i used to go. well they had the same last name as a lady i worked with last summer teaching... its probably terrible to write about it online because that makes it out there for the ENTIRE world to see... but lets face it, the chances of her reading this and knowing i am referencing HER are slim...

just wanted to say that reading that last name made me grin with complete bliss that this summer i am not working with that wicked witch. wow. what relief. she was a menace honestly. constantly striving to make a slight mockery out of me in front of my coworkers, but i held my ground with a smirk and did my job while secretly hoping she might have explosive diarrhea... i know thats wrong... terrible really... but i am sure in the last entire year she has had to "exercise the demons" through her... *cough* at least once, so the debt has been paid... 

off to read some WICKED!!! i like this book! maybe thats my inspiration... being mean! last night my friend from community group gave me permission to stop being so nice! SO YEAH take that! yeah! um. yeah! er... i should go... awkward... YOUR MOM! yeah... er.. she's pretty. or uh... oh crap. bye

love, God Bless, rock on, and Cheers,

m.

ps. would the friggin people who live above me and over one PLEASE stop playing the same song on repeat????.. it sucks whatever it is!!! but maybe it beats their usual choice of techno celine dion... no lie... 

Action is eloquence. 

-William Shake-speare

 (sorry i like to hyphenate his name sometimes) 

i like this quote. 

don't sweat the little things..

BANGS!?!?

i do NOT like myself with true bangs... i did it for an audition to appear 16 within 24 hrs... i dont think i seem 16... oh wait... *cough* i actually.... had a meltdown and cried about my HAIR!? um yeah i think i fit the part just fine! hahaha i was just worried that if i didn't look my very best then it would be something to keep me from being considered further. it went well, we'll see... on another note, i had the most fun ever in an audition on wednesday though. it was to do some stunt work for a PSA commercial about tobacco. i got to be kicked in the stomach and beat up by a GIANT man for a while. it was sooo fun! well i must get some rest! tomorrow (well technically today), i'll try to think of a friday flashback cause i totally missed last week's.

Love, Hugs, God Bless, ROCK ON signs, and Cheers!

m. 

you can QUOTE me on that...

i like quotes. witty ones. inspiring ones. famous ones. crazy ones... i like words. 

my friend Veronica says "words create reality." 

the point of this particular blog post is that i am going to start collecting quotes. i would love it if you would post some of your favorites in the comment box also paaa-lease!!! :) they can be from ANYTHING. the Bible. music lyrics. something funny Krissy said. a movie. a favorite book. a book you hate. something a stranger said in the blip of a conversation you heard while walking past. anything... i'll post blogs here and there with these quotes.

so here are just a few to get started with...

Sometimes I wish that I was the weather, you'd bring me up in conversation forever. And when it rained, I'd be the talk of the day. 

-John Mayer

Acting is merely the art of keeping a large group of people from coughing. 

-Sir Ralph Richardson 

Forbidden to remember. Terrified to forget.

-Twilight Series: New Moon (i read this sentence so many times when i came across it... wow)

I will examine the psychological lint in my belly button.

-Mrs. Mac (one of my college theatre professors in reference to taking too long to "think" in a scene)

Life's a bitch, if it were a slut it'd be easy.

-I don't know who said it, but its funny. :)

Many a false step is made by standing still. 

-A Veronica quote from a Fortune Cookie

It's like candy, but with blood, which makes it so much better.

-Grey's Anatomy

Everything will be okay in the end. If its not, its not the end yet.

-A friend of mine, Chelsea

I love acting. It is so much more real than life.

-Oscar Wilde

In the silence of the night I have often wished for just a few words of love from one man, rather than the applause of thousands of people.

-Judy Garland

Peeper: "Hinesight is always 57..."

Allison: "You mean... 20/20?"

Peeper: "Wait...HAHA I was thinking Heinz 57!"

-Peeper Fowler ladies and gentlemen :) I love her! 

To do a great right do a little wrong.

-William Shakespeare Merchant of Venice

Do you not know I am a woman? When I think, I must speak."

-William Shakespeare As You Like It

(i will try to limit myself to one Shakespeare per post eeep... maybe)

i hope that everyone had a relaxing weekend. today a group of friends and i went canoeing for a few hours and then to eat at my new favorite mexican food restaurant in Austin. Trudy's :) its great food at a cheap price! my sunburn from today is funny and splotchy in places from my lack of care whilst reapplying sunscreen mid-ride. it was a nice day. :)

Rock OUT, Loads of LOVE, God Bless, and Cheers!

m.

soap?

so i think i'll get on a random soap box of opinion. excuse me while i step onto this soap box...

and btw-why is it a soap box? was it like a make-shift platform to stand on? why soap boxes? why not a ketchup box? a microwave box? surely a fridge box would make you even taller than a soap box?

"Oh yeah!? You don't like people smacking their gum... Me neither, let me get on my MiscellaneousThingsStillNotUpackedSinceMovingOutOfMyCollegeDorm BOX!"

i mean how big is this "soap" box anyways!? and does that imply that i am not intimidating enough at 5'3" to speak my mind and let you know how much of an idiot you are by the furrowing of my (almost invisible) eyebrows!!! grrr!

alright. joke has died and i am still trying to squeeze a chuckle outta ya... moving on

okay okay okay i have a confession i really dont have anything i feel like ranting about but while you're here i will tell you a couple things that do actually get on my nerves in life....

people who sing at concerts or at musicals loud enough that i can't enjoy the people who get paid to do it. UNLESS you do what the person in the video below did.. then i will like you! :)

and thongs. i hate thongs. i am sorry. they are not sexy. unless you are perfectly shaped-and who really is? unless you are megan fox basically. (haha i am mildly obsessed with her and there may or may not be a poster of her in her skivvies hanging over my bed, but that is TOTALLY beside the point... she is just hot and not really a good actress). anyways thongs are gross. it would never be acceptable for a person walking down the street to stop in place and wipe their butt with the shirt on their back and put the shirt back ON...??? well thats sorta what is going on constantly when you wear a thong... ALSO i know they are very uncomfortable at first and if you say that you dont feel it you are not being fully honest. at some point the FIRST time you wore one it was odd feeling i KNOW... and its like playing guitar. i am reminding JoshyPants as he learns to play guitar that eventually his fingers will stop hurting because he will build up CALLUSES! CALLUSES LADIES! your crack doesn't feel the thong because...well you can make the correlation youself. EEEEEK ICKY ICKY ICKY!

alright thats enough rambling for me tonight! just trying to change the world one thong lover at a time... ;)

Much Love, God Bless, ROCK OUT, and Cheers!

m.

do re me fa so la......

confession time...

i am so envious of people who can sing. i love listening to extremely talented singers. this is definitely the easiest way to wrap me around your little finger because if you were to sing (and broadway belt it baby) "megan i really hate you. hate you hate you. and your breath smells like a diaper on fire!" i would probably want to kiss you on the lips if it sounded like you belong on stage accepting a Tony Award... SO, tomorrow morning i'm driving to san antonio for an entire day worth of vocal, acting, and dance auditions for a musical that i probably have no chance of being cast in... dang! why can't i exchange my amazing toe pinching skills, combined with my superior knowledge of the psychological habits of the flea in reference to existentialism, my dashingly good looking elbows and ears, and my secret super powers that involve controlling the minds of the innocent people reading this blog....i mean.. uhmm.. could i please please please exchange these incredible qualities for the ability to friggin' sing!? ...sigh... if you can sing, sing your little heart out today where ever you go. do it for the lesser ones like me who make up the groundlings in the performance of life next to your awesomeness and increDELICOUS voices! grrrrr i bite my thumb in your general direction! :) 

(Dec 2007 About to watch SPRING AWAKENING)

ROCK OUT, Much Love, God Bless and Cheers!

m.  

back when...

i like katie's "friday flashbacks," so i thought i would give it a try. i was thinking about all the things i was doing in the past few years during this time of may/summer... 

2008:

celebrating Addie's BDAY :) he made us all dress up for PF CHANGS we looked pretty snazzy :) that was a very fun night we even took fake prom like pics whilst waiting forev's for the table because there were probably 15 of us 

my last ever themed theatre party in college! this was the Disney Party. Mike as Smee from Hook hehehe :) this was at the "Spring '08 Tragic B*tch Awards Party" haha. this was a tradition in the Theatre department that started a year ago or so that every semester there would be this chance to give people "Tragic B*tch Awards" for really stupid, funny, crazy or "tragic" things they did during the semester. we nominated the weeks before on facebook in a private group then during the party you vote and sometime after midnight they count and give them out. :) a very very funny event that i am so glad i didn't graduate before it got started!

the theatre banquet... I love Mrs. Mac. totally my college mentor and the best professor ever "From your VISCERA honey!" She really has huge hair too and some people believe its full of SECRETS! hahaha she taught me everything acting, directing, dialects, film acting, how to flirt... all of it! i hope to be that crazy one day!

Graduating College with a bunch of awesomely talented Theatre and Musical Theatre people! Ahhh time for the "real world" a few people are missing from this pic though like nathan, blythe, henry... cody...and on and on... i bet at least 5 people in this picture make it big one day! seriously. first dibs are on... hmm Scott McCarrey. 

Moving in with Ali, Bryan, and Brenna to work at the Redd School. That was a really fun summer full of tons and tons of laughs! I never earned the "line of the day" which is a contest with Ali and Bryan but i definitely enjoyed working out at LA Fitness and then eating at the Cheesecake Factory a bunch :) 

Working at the Redd School trying to teach 1st-8th graders how to act, sing, and dance eeep not fun I will never forget some of these little kiddos. Its funny how i am soooo thankful I am not doing that this summer, but honestly a tiny tiny part of me will miss it. I will miss the people and the excitement those tiny sonofab...i mean those darling little rascals had about things.. certainly will miss being called Mister Megan. and the smoothie king runs with Jennifer where we wished someone would spike the caribbean way with rum to make it through the rest of the day haha

thankfully Saralynn was interning at FOX News in Houston so we hung out bunches and watched tons of "So You Think You Can Dance" We made a bunch of really funny improv videos and i currently miss her like crazy! i am so sad i didn't get to see her get married :( in april... lame... 

and but OF COURSE this summer i spent reading the Twilight series so in August I stood in line with Redd School counselors and got Breaking Dawn that i read in 3 days... (katie finished it like that first night i think right?) then it was my goal to make Ali then Brandee read it! bwa ha ha ha haaa

2007:

Yay rehearsals in Birmingham ("Bham") for a summer with Student Life Camp on the Aqua Team. haha i had no idea what to expect but i was thrilled and sooo thankful to get to do it

lunch at our first camp :) haha we are all wearing our name tags. eventually most of us quit even though we were supposed to wear it. i wore mine backwards most of the time. i remember this exact lunch because kids kept coming up to us and getting kat and i mixed up and for some reason so did Ireland OUR CAMP DIRECTOR! ha Irish!? they would tell me that i sang so great i should do it professionally... hahaha you got it backwards peeps!

The night before we did our very first "Celebration" performance. I was creating my jeans for "Hairmetal Hannah" this was when i was still spending the last hour of my nights reading that sappy love story Christian book... redeeming love? hehe i very quickly after the first couple nights of camp got wayyy too busy for leisure reading!

spoken word performance of "This Is My Reality" there actually is a video on the student life website of another acting team doing this, its really cool if you are bored check it out http://www.studentlife.com/events/videos.php?&cNav=1450 

during "Celebration" every day we would perform a song that was based on the mail students wrote in about funny random things happening to them at camp. we had a handful of real songs that were popular on the radio that we learned, and we would just write new words from the new letters and such... i wish i had some of these on video because they were pretty hilarious and rockin' too 

South Padre Island, Tx Sand Castle Contest Day yay! my group should have gotten last place because ours totally stank! the one that won was of a giant IPOD :)

this is what the life of AT2AP looks like. LATE LATE LATE night song writing and rehearsal for the next morning's song and lots of pizza... (that explains the 15 lbs. i gained from may-aug '07) eep

and of course the bridge i jumped off of at the end of the summer in pennsylvania :) i posted this one just cause i know my mom loves it! hehe NOT 

2006:

APO officer retreat. the last time i went camping. middle of the night we were attacked by a raccoon! eeep

breakfast time in the woods! what are jen and i doing?

the very first time i had sushi! May 28, 2006 with my great friend Rick! a caterpillar roll and a california roll yummmyyyy! i am forever changed and i love love love sushi now

baaahaha same day in the statue garden of houston with rick! this pic always makes me laugh because its just so awkward and funny

got my nose pierced that same day! and now i miss it bunches :(

God Bless, Rock Out, and A Whole Lotta Love! 

Cheers,

m.